“Anything that can be replaced need not been bordered about, if it seems lost or will be lost”.

…uduak akpan

Does life go on without any ache? If it does, are we not living in deception? And if the aches are real, why must they be real?

 

What is the truth about life as a whole when the one you love most is actually seen as the source of one’s anguish and trouble; troubles that are sometimes derived from the way you think she/he should behave towards you, should commitment be involved.

 

So many times our opinion about God falls in this line of thinking; “ if God loves me I should live a trouble free life” and the moment we open our mouth, heart and mind to utter some form of words (prayer) in a designed standard that varies from man to man seen as leaders most especially in the Christian environment, our confidence or the assurance of protection and provision is guaranteed but on the contrary we say “my sin has fished me out as God is not happy with me”. That’s even for one ready to take the blame for his shortcomings while others who believe they are perfect will begin to doubt God’s integrity on the ability to fully protect.

 

Was man actually made to gain at all times as only few celebrate their loss because any one who is seen doing this should naturally not be normal. This reminds me of the time I only needed to pass two courses to graduate from the university but only to discover I failed the two courses at my final calculation. Then I got to church later in the evening for bible study, on my knees and my hands raised up, I said “ thank you God”. Those around thought I had a testimony but the truth is that I surely do have testimonies in that line because I understood the law of gaining is to lose.

 

Our pains comes from our expectations, we and the people around us expect situations and the conditions that only encourages pleasure and so there is no reality of the possibility of loss. Holding on too tightly to what we have. That’s why you need to encourage and toughen your spirit against the beliefs that afflict even the most powerful.

 

Think about this…, it will take you far from struggle and pain into peace so perfect like the innocent air that blows in the cool of the day.

 

I love you but the good Lord loves you more than I do.

 

uduak akpan

 

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“Our faith determines our experience in the unlimited power of God”

…Revd. Oniya

“It is a life of life to the man his desire are met”

…buf akpan (derived form Prov. 13:12)

“I believe the reason man has problem and experience pain is because of our ability to think when it’s not well used”

…buf akpan

Sometimes God is agonizingly slow in solving the problems we bring to his notice but I have never seen a man that has ever received his request from God in a rush and ever appreciated it, uh-oh!
Someone is asking if it is because we should appreciate what we receive from God that He sometimes prefers we face trials before we receive anything from Him?” The answer is NO, but what I passionately believe is that God wants each and everyone of us to get to that level where we place all our trust on Him and that’s when all anxiety cease because we have reasons to be relaxed when we are conscious of the fact that He’s is control even though many do not get to know who they really are until they encounter a set back।My life is an example of those set of पीपुल.
i staarted Speakingpeace publication that now have access is over ten thousand people across the world during my worst nightmare. Just at the time I thought I was the worst God has ever created was when people kept on calling to tell me my one page news, letter has been a blessing to them, like someone said to me just a day before that he keeps those news letter in a special file and reads them often and often to receive encouragement even though encouragement is from God, it comes through a medium. Someone (Carol) dropped this comments to my blog: “Great insight. My best friend passed away leaving behind a two year old daughter. God is the source of hope for us all... Thank you for writing it so beautifully...”. To even think that I have over two thousand subscribers of which some have decided to be seeking for my counsel whenever they want to take a step and some of them often encourage me time after time is enough to cease all anxieties.
I believe now, that when someone knows where he/she is heading, there is no need for a rush. Many wants to kill themselves on the work or dream that has been committed to their hands by God Himself and I know that nobody will be sent on an errand without being giving the necessary things needed to accomplish the same but when we tend to want to move faster than the one that counted us worthy to commit the same into our hands, then pain and suffering is inevitable. I have told myself several times that Speakingpeace is not about me but about Jesus who is the prince of peace Himself and why will I be presenting myself to know better than Him or the step to be taking. He knows all I need to publish and speak peace and if actually He committed the same into my hands, then he has to make the necessary provision to reach out to the people. He will lead us to, without mixing things up because He has a better vision.
Beloved, the major purpose of this thought is to let you know with God, you can pass through your most difficult moment with ease. Am not among those that will promise a life without trials, it isn’t biblical but we can live everyday of our lives in peace, with ease depending on your awareness on the way God operates, which enables you to still put on a smiling face even in difficult period, which in turns give glory to God because reasons will be made available to you to praise God.
Am only interested in the need to believe the best is available to you no matter how terrible things become, a life of peace is worth living, a life without anxiety is worth living always giving glory to the Source of all things and people will keep asking why you still find reasons to be joyful even in the midst of troubles and the secret of this is when we all learn how to show gratitude to our Maker.
Wallaced D. Watlless have a better way he described it;
“The whole process of a mental readjustment and atonement can be summed up in one word, gratitude.”
He also put it in another lovely way;
“It is easy to understand that the nearer we live to theSsource of wealth, the more wealth we shall receive: and it is easy also to understand that the soul that is always grateful lives in closer touch with God than the one which never looks to him in thankful acknowledgment”.
He continued by also saying that;
“Gratitude alone can keep you looking towards the All, and prevent you from falling into the error of thinking of the supply as limited; and to do that would be fatal to your hopes”,
He also said that; “the grateful mind is constantly fixed upon the best, therefore it tends to become the best, it takes the form or character of the best, and will receive the best and give the best”.
I believe when some of us listing to peoples testimony, we will even be asking for forgiveness from God because we realize He has been faithful to us. Let’s learn how to hold on to God at all times without any doubts because His deliverance is never too late. Anxiety can cease only when we know God has the best for us. You can become someone’s hero of faith by the life you decide to live from this day on and the real fact and the truth is that, it is until all anxieties cease that God moves more on our behalf because it encourages trust and helps Strengthens our Faith.
Remember that “the labour of the righteous leads to life”. Proverbs 10:16a
Finally, if you should loose anything in the quest for survival, let it be yourself, loose yourself into greatness, loose yourself into immortality by putting off mortality in your mind that will automatically influence your attitude. Loose your cynicism. Loose your doubts to faith in God which becomes grater than fate. Loose your unbelief. Empty your day of search for security; fill them with passion for service. Empty hours of the ambition for recognition that produces frustration, but fill them with the aspiration for achievement that only gives glory to God. Empty your moment of need for entertainment, and above, loose your anxiety that will set you free like the wind, the moon and the sun.
I love you, but the Lord loves you more than I do.
Yours at-all-times.

Buf Akpan

I looked at Mercy, so innocent and full of life, with the confidence of a glorious future all written on her face. It looked so Ironical to me, comparing her look to the present reality; being a little girl who lost her father when she was barely six months and her grand father few days after she clocked a year, even though grand dad was 75. What about her mom who had to leave for the National Youth Service, popularly known as NYSC in Nigeria, where any newly graduated individual had to serve the nation, before he/she can be considered a graduate seeking for a job; And mommy had to go to fit into the society properly, to at-least secure what I call a programmed future, leaving Mercy in the hands of a bigger sister, who also had her challenges to face.

Mercy never seems to be asking the question, “Did mommy have to go leaving me in this cold world she just introduced me into?” I have on the other hand, never stopped pondering on series of questionable incidences around the world, Just like you have never stopped asking questions about life, future, seeking the right direction to go and sometimes blaming God or the people around you for your present state without considering the fact that there were those times you were like Mercy, when you never had to worry about how you were going to eat or be clothed, not because you knew people were responsible for it, but because it was only supernatural for a provision to have been made, even before you were brought forth.

Yet you worry as if you can think better than the Provider, as if your being has been kept by your knowledge.

I was scared to realize that hope was written in the sky for Mercy, which is why she could smile, and I saw it (hope) reflected on her face.

Look up to the sky, what does it say? “It is over for you or there’s surely hope, there is surely better days ahead”.

No matter how dark the cloud might be, it will brighten up again. No matter how long, it can never be darkened for 24 hours.

If Mercy has hope, beloved, you have no excuse because “God having provided some better things for us….” Heb. 11:40.

I love you but the Lord loves you more than I do.

Yours at-all-times.

Buf

It’s so good to be out here, feeling the freshness of the air but imagining what the people God cares so much about are going through just some miles away from me in Kenya; asking myself, will the present situation turn to war? While many were shown on Euro News and MBI (Minaj Broadcast International) fleeing their place that used to be a comfort zone, some others were stoned dead and its been confirmed about 300 are now dead, while about 70 have been displaced from their homes, yet others were seen looting. Kenya used to be one of the most peaceful nations in Africa but is today facing troubles carried over from 2007 and no one knows how long it’s going to last.

I woke up on the other hand this morning with a heavy heart without knowing specifically what was wrong even though I went to bed on top of the world sensing my life between May 2007 and December 31, 2007 was like a tale of a talebearer who suddenly finished the sad part of his story, opening another page of another chapter with hopes, blessing, grace, and love. But with these evidence of a better day still filled with pains and a sorry heart of how His creator felt about his imperfection(s), the creator who still decided to lift him in his mistakes; tears sliding down continuously, wanting to carry the burdens of those around him but with an echo in his heart saying, “move forward, move forward, move forward to great beginnings, move forward to the fullness of His (God’s) glory.

2007 is gone and gone forever, there’s sunshine now. The sun has risen and only risen to shine. Wipe your tears because after your tears is a glittering face. Yes I know what it means to make mistakes, I know what it means to be delayed, I know what it means to be called names, but I also know a heart full of desires is better than a heart full of regrets—so am neither going to think about my failures nor my success but on my visions and dreams.

                                                       “A man dies when regrets takes the place of dreams”
                                                                                                                                      …Anonymous

Welcome to a whole new year, many almost made it: is it about the young man that was shot dead on the 31st or the young woman that was caught up in a car crash on the 23rd of December, seen by my fiancé besides the express way with blood all over her, or those we saw at the hospital on the 24th lying on their sick bed without any hope of celebrating the festive period with their families (I mean there was no single bed empty but all filled with casualties) and all I could say with passion is, thank God they still have their lives.

If a tree is cut down, there is still hope it will bud again, but is there hope in the grave? Throughout my life have been waiting for the change that will and has surely manifest(ed) because I believe; making all things possible for me.

So welcome once again to a whole new life. If you have read to this point, then step into the glory of His fullness, making sure you pass this message across to as many as you love to see a change in their lives and if you get this message please request for your free gift: AS A MAN THINKETH IN HIS HEART SO IS HE, by James Allen. All you need do is send a blank mail to the email address bellow. It’s my own way of saying happy New Year. Remember,

                                                “There’s nothing behind, so keep moving”
                                                                                                                                          …Buky Odu

I love you but the Lord loves you more than I do.

Buf akpan

                                                            bufonly@yahoo.com
              www.speakingpeaceonline.blogspot.com, www.godsremnantassembly.org

 

“Why do pleasures move men away form God, while difficulties move us closer to Him? But God even in His mercy allow some things to move us towards focus.”

…buf akpan

 

We are one day discovered and it takes yet another process to really be aware we exist in this pleasant world many will call terrible but in truth: how pleasant will it be for two mothers whose children were involved in an accident leaving one a survivor and the other dead?

While one was giving thanks in a church, the other was in a cemetery refusing to be comforted while burying her (only) sun.

 

Hmm! What state are you now, a sorrowful or a joyful state? My intentions are right, my hands are pure but I’ll rather have you look closely into yourself. What could cause your tears?...

 

What will make you go an extra mile to give up your life—in encouragement, money or moving out of your comfort to give life to someone you can’t even dream of meeting with one on one?

 

Hmm! You don’t get—I heard in a song, nothing I have is truly mine. After giving it a thought I accepted the truth of the statement.

 

How?

 

I have come to know everything in my procession came at His (God’s) timing through grace, that is God gave them to me because He knows they will give more meaning to my life: I mean the ideas I posses, the little money I have, my relationships and my precious breath of life are all His—at my conception He gave my parents to me, well you can say He gave me to my parents, whatever but truly:

 

“The earth and everything on it belong to the Lord. The world and all its people belong to him.”

…Psalm 24:1 (ERV)

 

If I have a billion dollar and God ask me to give it up, can I? Like the rich young ruler, you remember? (Mathew 19:21). Well if I don’t the billion dollar rules me and I can’t partake of His inheritance. It’s hard but this is my principle number one of humility. Every time my shoulders are about being raised up, this mind comes and am remembered the greatest of all I posses, my breath of life is even a gift to humanity, then those shoulders goes down in humility yet I can’t still say am humble, only One can truly say am humble; God.

 

Look at me and receive for I will give you what I have but only if you can answer this question; if all the wonderful things in your possession are God’s, what about the situation causing your tears and agitation; the lack, the disappointment, the break up in your relationship, the shame and the inability to get a job coupled with hunger and rejection. Are these also God’s?

 

In your answer is your solution and deliverance but just as you can give up your life for another, why not give up the pains and difficulties to the rightful owner who is more than able to carry those burden. Yeah! I know its difficult thinking about the reality without the eyes of faith that can only make us please God.

 

What more can I say? A wonderful and joyful life is also in your possession.

 

I love you but the Lord loves you more than I do.

 

Yours at-all-times.

 

Buf akpan

“…you want to know how rich I am? Wait for His timing, the time of life, and then judge me”

…Dr ‘Tayo Brown

 

Why do I have to be chosen in much suffering? I thought God should be able to stop my difficulties, because am faithful to His commands, doing the right thing with prayers and fasting but my pain and agony is not measurable. Sometimes I feel I should fly away form shame even though I sometimes also have the strength to believe God’s faithfulness is guaranteed, but another time the hope of at least a better day fades away like smoke and my whole life is so blurred in the darkness of confusion—what will it take God to just grant my desires? Even though anytime I open my mind to consider the numerous trials all around me, I feel have been unfaithful not to have said “I bless you Lord in my situation”.

 

Imagine a three month baby lost her father in the process of making sure the baby grows up to call him a responsible father; he struggled in labour all the days of his life to make life a place for his baby—what will this baby ask her mom when she’s of age, I looked at the mother recently and all I could say was “God you understand” but how do I tell her God is faithful with pain written all over her, faced with the responsibility of taking care of her baby as a single parents and pressures from families, she said with a sigh “are these things actually working for my good? ”

 

Her expression shows she’s about saying goodbye, she’s given up on hope, faith and trust but waiting to be told there’s hope with the assurance of beauty in His (God) timing but you are also about saying goodbye without considering she needs you to tell her there’s hope.

 

Indeed it is difficult to give when you think you don’t have but I believe your hope shall be made more revealed when you give hope to others. A perfect model is when Jesus gave hope to the saint at the right hand on the cross (you could call him a thief) even when people thought it was over for the Messiah (Luke 23:43).

 

Hmmm! I saw an old friend recently, looking terrible and desperate to receive money from me but I thought what I had was even too little for my immediate need and never gave to him, but with few steps forward my heart smote me in pain and regret; why didn’t I give to him but he was immediately out of sight and ever since then God has never stopped emphasizing that am a solution even when you have to give your life for others in money, time and substance.

Your difficulties are just there to let you know how it feels for people out there going through the pains you’ve gone through. How many more will say goodbye if you say goodbye.

 

It’s not time to say goodbye but a time to share the hope of His (God) faithfulness:

 

“the problem of pain indeed has to do with how individuals allow any experience to affect him/her. The most difficult experience can likewise bring joy into our heart only if we allow joy to flow and flourish within”

                                                                            …buf akpan

 

My love there’s joy in the morning, search for your morning even though the weeping is, it’s just for a little time and until there’s joy I will not judge you.

 

I believe in you.

 

I love you but the lord loves you more than I do.

 

Yours at-all-time

 

buf akpan