“I believe the problem we have is our ability to think”
…buf akpan
What happens the moment I give up the struggle to achieve, what happens the moment, what goes on around me do not determine my actions, what happens the moment I do nothing to please anyone?
Hmm! Are things really working for or against me? What do I really want: Money, Fame, Success or what? What is my life dedicated to, what about my passion, is it in the wrong thing or am I really living to satisfy someone? If yes who?
I know I live in fear and the anxiety that I might fail has never left my life for a second even when I know I believe God, I know once he has promised, he’s faithful and committed to fulfilling the promise but even at that I still don’t have the peace in promised future that is God himself. But the truth is; can anything ever be done by my strength without his grace upon my life?
Sometimes I feel so secured and another time am scared and I can trace this to the time I slip from the assurance if his promise for my assured success because I think about myself, age (thinking am an under achiever) circumstances and the picture I see which sometimes become clouded without a clear vision. And when you think about it you notice many people we call successful today are only those that have been effective and I can conclude, that is agree with Kelly Varner:
“That we were called to be effective and not successful”
Does the wind struggle to blow, does the tree or grass struggle to grow or does the eagles struggle to fly, what about the sun but they are all free. Free from what? The fear of what they will become yet we can not compare ourselves to any of these creature.
When will man ever stop trying to comprehend God with his/her physical senses and what he wants to do? For:
“They that worship God must worship him in spirit and in truth”
What are your fears? The treat that you might loose all you’ve ever labored for or you might never become somebody and what makes one somebody? Why does everyone want to be somebody “self preservation?”
God can’t operate with anyone seeking self preservation, oh you shocked? Through my experience, I have discovered those that God has used and will use are those that no longer have their lives but God’s.
We can be free, we can reduce to the number of times fear pump up in our lives, God wants to help but you need to to embrace his life in you.
I love you but the Lord love you more than I do.
buf akpan
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