“You could be a living proof of God’s faithfulness; it depends on how you use the act of gratitude”
…buf akpan
When I look close into myself, I seem to see someone else, and the question I ask is this: “can this still be me?” I was sometimes ago a loser, many rejected and denied me, I was sometime a liability to some, my thought brought only boarding to some and when some see me coming they turn to go the other way. This exactly is the reason I shed only tears to think many wants to be my friend now. I shed more tears anytime I remember God is actually faithful, He has always being there even when I thought He was not there: indeed John Maxwell is right with his saying that;
“When God want to groom a man, He sends him to the school of necessities and not the school of pleasures”
My tears sometimes ago freely flowed because of inadequacies but it flows now for the joy of God’s power and deliverance.
He’s never in a rush to stop you from passing through shadows of fear but he’s always in a rush to let you know his faithfulness in those difficulties and making sure you see the lessons those difficulties has for you.
My tears! My tears!! My tears!!! Is as a result of His faithfulness; many that rejected me needs me around them now…
Many that denied me claim to be my brothers and sisters…
Someone saw me and blessed my earthly parents but there was a stage I couldn’t go out because of shame and the fear of disappointment.
The blessing of the Lord is indeed real and makes rich, like someone once told me in my difficulties “God can never be against you” and that’s just the way it is even when it was difficult to believe God could have actually been for me even in my pains but when I gave a careful thought to it, I came up with this question: “wouldn’t the world be boring if there are no reasons to depend on God?”
How many lose God the moment there’s a little comfort? The moment a doctor can be named as the best in his field, people pay all they have to get better because health is wealth, so they say but forgetting there’s actually a source of divine health and other aspect of life and when difficulties are encountered only few are humble to turn back to the source of all things but rather give up on life when:
“The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry”
Psalm 34:15 (KJV)
There are more tears sliding down my face however, and pains in my heart because of many more that give up early in the midst of their difficulties or at the verge of their deliverance. I am a living proof of God’s abundant mercy and faithfulness, my Book SOMETHING GOOD IN WHAT I SEE series one, has more to say on the stages of my difficulties and how I survived through. What more can I say? Can you imagine a young boy of four who is about being injected in the attempt to save his life but feels his father is betraying him having decided to hold him tight so the doctor could inject him and daddy keeps saying, “son I love you, just one more to go” with tears and a sense of disappointment, he says “ I hate you dad, show your love by not allowing the injection”, daddy sigh and say “ son is for your good, I love you”.
The same way God says, it’s for your good son, it’s for your good daughter, I love you.
I love you but the Lord loves you more than I do.
Yours at-all-time
buf akpan
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